{here we go}
I've been contemplating starting a blog for quite a while now. Months ago I told Kolby that it had been on my mind constantly and I almost felt like The Spirit was telling me to! Silly, right? Well I ignored that thought for some time because I couldn't fathom the idea that someone would need to read my thoughts. Fast forward to today and it's been on my mind a lot again. It wasn't until just hours ago that I realized maybe the feelings I was having weren't so someone could read my thoughts. I have so much in my head right now SCREAMING to get out and I need an outlet. There's a good chance no one will ever read or care about the words I put here. But at least now I will have a place to put them outside my own mind and hey! Maybe I'll even get a little more sleep! *bonus*
{the cold hard facts}
If you know me at all, you know that I have a hard time opening up to just about anyone. You could be my best friend, sister, or distant cousin and you probably know about the same amount about my life as an old middle school Facebook friend. It's not on purpose, but unless you have asked me questions about a specific part of my life, I probably haven't just told you about it. The reasons vary between person and situation but just to name a few: I'm pretty private and try to keep personal highs and lows personal (I don't know why), I'm afraid of what you will think, I know what you'll think and I don't want to hear about how I *should* be dealing with something, my problems seem silly compared to the heart wrenching story you just told me, I don't want to gloat about the good things happening, OR the most likely reason-- I'm just awkward. So no matter who you are, just be happy that I do recognize this little problem and here I am! Starting a public blog for my own personal benefit, as a place to record feelings, sorrows and stresses, high points in life, and golden moments that shouldn't be forgotten.
{the promise}
I promise to only write things that are honest, true, and accurate to the best of my knowledge. I promise to write when things are hard and I promise to write when things are glorious. I promise to try to be as open as I can and let this be a step towards breaking down these heavy brick walls I have so gracefully (or ungracefully) hidden behind for so long.
{let the games begin}
